I have been working on the Phase 2 blog post for a couple weeks now (not including my tantrum weeks when I took a couple off just to regroup my wedding head). Progress is being made but there is so much I want to talk about and I want to take my time to make sure it all comes out understandable instead of just sewing rambling.
In the mean time, our save the date post cards have arrived and I've been collecting addresses with some success and have to start addressing those and getting them into the mail.
I hope to keep working on this phase 2 post and have it ready to post at the end of this week so we can move on to the next steps.
<3 Future Mrs. Luce
166 Days to the Wedding
Monday, February 29, 2016
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
Blues, You're a Buzzkill
The last time I wrote two weeks ago things were feeling a little bleak. After a really great talk with Ben and discovering a new walking path directly behind our house I was feeling much better last week but still couldn't find that fire that makes planning our wedding fun so I granted myself another week off from the planning. I know I have a very limited time left to just not do it when I'm not feeling it but when I have the time I'm making use of it.
I haven't done much with the dress since these blues have been keeping me in a choke hold. That's ok too as we have plenty of time for that and don't need to stress. Nancy did a few alterations that had us a little worried we'd made it too small but I did try it on and it wasn't too small at all. It was kind of perfect. I'm so glad to have her leadership and guidance for this project. She really has done so much of the work to pull this together and I just can't thank her enough.
This week I'm struggling with fitness. Over the last two years I've made some real progress on my fitness goals so I wouldn't have the stress of that while planning a wedding and making a dress but the thing with fitness is that its not really something you can check off your list once and put it behind you. Its a lifestyle change and this winter has made me feel like hibernating and as a result I've gained back about 10lbs. This doubles the weight I want to lose to get to my goal and that has frustrated me and has made me irritated with myself. I know it is because its winter and I'm still eating like I'm walking 5 miles a day but I'm not. I need to pump the breaks on cutting loose and get back to where I exercise a little bit every day. I sleep better. I feel better. It puts me in a better mood. It makes me feel GOOD. Why is it that something that makes all those things happen is so hard to get myself motivated to do? Because it is easier to stay in bed. It is easier to sack out on the couch with the dog. It is easier to no exercise. Easier but not better. I want better.
The other thing that has been looming over my head is actually getting our guestlist together. The list has been made and refined for a couple months now and I know all I really need to do is to get it into an excel document and start obtaining and adding addresses. I wanted our save the dates to be out by now but I've been slacking hardcore on this list prep thing. I need just need to put on my big girl pants and just f@#$ing tackle it like a boss... Nay.... like the BRIDE BOSS I am!
I still have not received any call backs from the messages I've left to try to arrange my rehearsal dinner so I'm moving on. Look, if I'm calling to book some business for you and you can't find the time or resources to call me back, that questions my confidence in whether or not you're the partner for me. Ergo I'm moving on and my newest idea is one I like the best anyway and just hope that I can make some progress with it so my mind can look forward to how awesome its going to be instead of wondering if I'm just getting my hopes up for nothing.
My next post will contain more dress things. I'm starting to feel like we are getting back on track.
<3 The Future Mrs. Luce
Week 7
I haven't done much with the dress since these blues have been keeping me in a choke hold. That's ok too as we have plenty of time for that and don't need to stress. Nancy did a few alterations that had us a little worried we'd made it too small but I did try it on and it wasn't too small at all. It was kind of perfect. I'm so glad to have her leadership and guidance for this project. She really has done so much of the work to pull this together and I just can't thank her enough.
This week I'm struggling with fitness. Over the last two years I've made some real progress on my fitness goals so I wouldn't have the stress of that while planning a wedding and making a dress but the thing with fitness is that its not really something you can check off your list once and put it behind you. Its a lifestyle change and this winter has made me feel like hibernating and as a result I've gained back about 10lbs. This doubles the weight I want to lose to get to my goal and that has frustrated me and has made me irritated with myself. I know it is because its winter and I'm still eating like I'm walking 5 miles a day but I'm not. I need to pump the breaks on cutting loose and get back to where I exercise a little bit every day. I sleep better. I feel better. It puts me in a better mood. It makes me feel GOOD. Why is it that something that makes all those things happen is so hard to get myself motivated to do? Because it is easier to stay in bed. It is easier to sack out on the couch with the dog. It is easier to no exercise. Easier but not better. I want better.
The other thing that has been looming over my head is actually getting our guestlist together. The list has been made and refined for a couple months now and I know all I really need to do is to get it into an excel document and start obtaining and adding addresses. I wanted our save the dates to be out by now but I've been slacking hardcore on this list prep thing. I need just need to put on my big girl pants and just f@#$ing tackle it like a boss... Nay.... like the BRIDE BOSS I am!
I still have not received any call backs from the messages I've left to try to arrange my rehearsal dinner so I'm moving on. Look, if I'm calling to book some business for you and you can't find the time or resources to call me back, that questions my confidence in whether or not you're the partner for me. Ergo I'm moving on and my newest idea is one I like the best anyway and just hope that I can make some progress with it so my mind can look forward to how awesome its going to be instead of wondering if I'm just getting my hopes up for nothing.
My next post will contain more dress things. I'm starting to feel like we are getting back on track.
<3 The Future Mrs. Luce
Week 7
Thursday, February 4, 2016
The Blues- I Don't Mean Pantone...
I just sat here for 5 whole minutes trying to find a cute way to tie "The Blues" and "Something old/new/borrowed/blue" together because this week has been the first time that making plans feels like a chore. Nothing I came up with made me feel any better which obviously means there isn't a cute way to do it. Even before we got engaged my wedding motto was "If you're not having fun, you're doing it wrong." I'm clearly doing something wrong this week because it hasn't been any fun at all. I know when I get like this I have to take a little step back and wait for it to feel dreamy again.
I have looked forward to the process of planning this wedding for a really long time. We were together for 8 years before our engagement and I knew I wanted to marry him after the first one. I promised myself when we finally decided to do it that I would ENJOY it. I wouldn't fret about small details and I wouldn't worry about the things that won't matter after 5 years of our marriage. So far this has worked great. This week though, work has been taxing and I feel like the housework is closing in around me which makes it nearly impossible for me to focus on anything else. This week I just can't muster excitement that usually comes so easily. Usually wedding planning makes me feel productive and awesome but this week I feel stuck.
I've been trying to come up with a good plan for our rehearsal dinner. I've had a few ideas I really liked but no one seems to be calling me back after I leave messages and that's pretty frustrating. I have also decided to do the invitations myself and I have some ideas there but I'm trying not to get carried away with making them so complicated that I'm setting myself up for failure. I know my limits and I need to make sure I stay within them.
The dress is coming along great and I'll be posting more details about that soon but in the mean time I'm trying to pull myself out of this hole I've found myself in. I've been having some back pain that I'm associating with my new exercise routine and that makes it harder to stick to and I haven't been able to find a good mood. Its weeks like this I wished my friends were closer. All the awesome girls in my life that could help pull me out seem so far away. This is not their fault as Boston, Hawaii, Georgia, Alaska, Greenville, and even Bangor and Portland are not moving any closer to Skowhegan anytime soon. It is amazing what I believe could be solved over a cup of coffee with any one of the girls I miss so much on a regular basis. It is weeks like this I'm jealous of all those brides who conned 8 girls to be in their wedding party and assume it is their right to make their bridal problem the whole bridal party's problem. To be fair, I've never been a bridesmaid under a Bridezilla like that but weeks like this I kinda get it.
I know this week is going to pass and I'll eventually get the invitations and the rehearsal dinner worked out and the day itself will be worth 100 weeks of the blues. Until then I'll just keep wishing I had 3 weeks of paid vacation time I could take in a row to clean my house top to bottom, go on long walks with the dog, peruse Pinterest for hours, and go on coffee dates with all the friends I'm missing. I'll keep wishing that money was no object to happiness and that I could keep this job I love but only have to come in a few hours a week and have it pay all my bills. I'll keep wishing for time to be my bitch.
I'm sure every bride goes through this in some way or another.. I mean Bridezillas don't birth themselves.... I just have to take a deep breath, look ahead to the weekend, and remember that when you're doing it wrong just stop and when you start again there is a whole new potential for everything to start going right again... or at least potential for someone to answer my damn emails.
<3 The Future Mrs. Luce
Week 5
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I've been trying to come up with a good plan for our rehearsal dinner. I've had a few ideas I really liked but no one seems to be calling me back after I leave messages and that's pretty frustrating. I have also decided to do the invitations myself and I have some ideas there but I'm trying not to get carried away with making them so complicated that I'm setting myself up for failure. I know my limits and I need to make sure I stay within them.
The dress is coming along great and I'll be posting more details about that soon but in the mean time I'm trying to pull myself out of this hole I've found myself in. I've been having some back pain that I'm associating with my new exercise routine and that makes it harder to stick to and I haven't been able to find a good mood. Its weeks like this I wished my friends were closer. All the awesome girls in my life that could help pull me out seem so far away. This is not their fault as Boston, Hawaii, Georgia, Alaska, Greenville, and even Bangor and Portland are not moving any closer to Skowhegan anytime soon. It is amazing what I believe could be solved over a cup of coffee with any one of the girls I miss so much on a regular basis. It is weeks like this I'm jealous of all those brides who conned 8 girls to be in their wedding party and assume it is their right to make their bridal problem the whole bridal party's problem. To be fair, I've never been a bridesmaid under a Bridezilla like that but weeks like this I kinda get it.
I know this week is going to pass and I'll eventually get the invitations and the rehearsal dinner worked out and the day itself will be worth 100 weeks of the blues. Until then I'll just keep wishing I had 3 weeks of paid vacation time I could take in a row to clean my house top to bottom, go on long walks with the dog, peruse Pinterest for hours, and go on coffee dates with all the friends I'm missing. I'll keep wishing that money was no object to happiness and that I could keep this job I love but only have to come in a few hours a week and have it pay all my bills. I'll keep wishing for time to be my bitch.
I'm sure every bride goes through this in some way or another.. I mean Bridezillas don't birth themselves.... I just have to take a deep breath, look ahead to the weekend, and remember that when you're doing it wrong just stop and when you start again there is a whole new potential for everything to start going right again... or at least potential for someone to answer my damn emails.
<3 The Future Mrs. Luce
Week 5
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